Run, Kiki, Run / by Nicole Paulus

Recently I have taken up running. Honestly, if you asked me a few months ago if I was a runner I would have emphatically yelled "HELL NO!"

Let's discuss for a moment how much I used to hate running. As a middle schooler I preferred watching Boy Meets World, AIMing, and eating round after round of those little bits of heaven called Fudge Rounds than doing anything close to physical activity.

So when the androgynous PE teachers used to make us do these awful things called pacers in gym class, you can understand my dismay. Anyone familiar with this accepted form of torture? You are basically required to line up in a horizontal line with your classmates and run to the other side of the gym when you hear the "beep." If you didn't make it to the other side of the gym before the next "beep" you had to sit down (and then lose gym participation points.) Do you know how hard it was for a chubby 7th grader to keep up? I was lucky if I made it through one rotation before my entire chest felt like it was going to burst into flames.

Finally, after 27 years of life, I have finally started to appreciate running. Within one month I have dropped my mile time by nearly 3 minutes. When I first started, my time was 12:30. Recently, however, I clocked in at 9:33. 

So, why am I sharing this with you? Partially because it's Music Monday and I wanted to share the playlist that helped me achieve my running goal, but also because I am a walking example that we are our own worst enemies. Everyone has that one thing that they don't think they are very good at--speaking in public, bowling, making scrambled eggs, picking out movies on Netflix. We convince ourselves that we will never be good and stop trying, even if that thing has the potential to transform us. I hope this playlist will help you quash those feelings of self-doubt and do the one thing that you think you're the worst at over and over until you no longer see it as a challenge. 

You may not ever become America's top chef or an olympic gold medalist--but once you start seeing yourself improve in small ways, you'll start to realize how many other things you have been convincing yourself you aren't good at. Stop lying to yourself and start trying yourself--the only thing stopping you is you. 


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